Whether we like it or not, we face an endless series of battles day after day. Some of the toughest battles are the ones we fight with ourselves. But once we are done with those, somehow the rest seems comparatively easier.

It’s amazing that some people can actually derive pleasure from the misery of others. Sadly, such people can’t be just wished away, they need to be seriously contended with at times. Even if you are the sort who hates fights and confrontations, you’ll soon come to realize that we don’t always get to choose whether to fight or not, let alone who and what to fight.

But perhaps there is still a light at the end of the tunnel, for most of the time we can choose how to fight. It is said that patience is the best way, but let’s face it, it is also the hardest. But trust me… once you learn how to fight with patience…it will be so much easier to win those daily battles. I guess, in the end, the choice is still yours.

As they say “if life gives you lemons, make lemonade” .

Just had red beans with tomato sauce and a nice cup of cofee, sweet and aromatic….just the way i like it….ummmmmm heaven.

Sometimes, in the good times of our lives, we can create a little heaven on earth for ourselves by doing the simplest things….
buying those shoes you have been thinking about for the last 2 months, better still buying them on 50% discount!!
reading an amazing book and losing yourself in the magical world the author has created, feeling all the emotions that the chracters feel, but in an unreal, ethereal way;
sleeping like a baby after a long tiring day that started 15 hours ago;
living life and appreciating and enjoying every moment the way it deserves to be appreciated; going on a shopping spree and buying everything you even remotely like without bothering about how much cash you have;
kissing the baby you love or better still getting kisses from the baby you love;
being alone and loving it, never feeling lonely;
being broke and loving it, never feeling poor;
being silly and loving it, never feeling idiotic;
being under dressed and loving it, never feeling self conscious;
being over dressed and loving it, never feeling ostentatious;
being wild and loving it, never worrying about disapprovals;
being exhausted and loving it, never feeling over worked;
watching other people being praised and loving it, never feeling envious;
and ofcourse I shouldn’t forget the nice cup of coffee that started it all!

As soon as we learn to find the heaven within ourselves, we can find it in a lot of places around us.

Ugggh….

My eyes hurt and get watery every time I look at the computer screen. I guess that’s their way of protesting against the abuse I subject them to, ie no rest and constant use. The terrible heat and humidity, that september has decided to bless us with, just aggravates the situation.

However, this sucks considering I’m supposed to look at the computer screen the whole time at work. So when I force myself to do that, I get a headache. Hence it is red, watery hurting eyes with a headache. This is how I am at the work place right now.

The fact that my work has started boring me doesn’t help, ofcourse. And that is a whole different story. But typing for too long is hazardous to my eyes, so I will leave this for another time.

My heart bleeds with sadness, filled with a strange unnamed longing, perhaps even desolation. I don’t want to be loved; I just want to love. I want to obliterate the influences of the past and start afresh. I want to venture into the realms of the impossible, leaving what’s possible so far behind that it seems impossible. I want to dream, because I can, but I also want dreams to be more than mere dreams. I want hurtful things to vanish and become as unreal as my dreams seem to be. I want truth to be sweet or at least bittersweet, but not entirely bitter. I want faces to have real smiles that reach straight into their eyes. I want real happiness, not a mere consolation that enables me to barely survive and nothing more. I want intellectual stimulation, the kind that causes fulfillment and not desperation.

Little beanie (my one year old nephew) has not been well for the last three days and his mom, his grand parents, his dad and everyone is very very upset. We went to the doctor yesterday and he was diagnosed as having intestinal infection. He is not active as he usually is, and spends most of the day sleeping. Of course he looks totally adorable when he is sleeping, but he has also lost weight and is looking weaker. He is on anti biotic and hopefully the infection will be cured soon.